I can’t count
how many times in my life I wished I would feel less, or at least less
intensely. Often others go thorough stress, and they seem to not let it bug
them. But for me it’s to the 10th degree stress. When something sad
happens, it feels like my heart breaks (and yes to the 100th degree
that others seem to experience, or so it feels). But oh the joy when I have joy... No I don’t
have bipolar, but I do feel intensely and I feel a lot.
I’ve often wished my
heart to be harder. Yet I know God wants to give us a heart of flesh (Ezek11:19). And so today
as I was crying, pouring out my heart to God; wishing again that I could
be different when I was reminded of Psalm 139. A well known scripture to most, “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and
wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” (v13-14). What struck me is the phrase: "I praise you” and why
does David praise the LORD? Because God did a good job with David. And not only
did God do a good job with David, He did a good job with me! Wow! As I read
that I realized I more often complain to God about how He made me (this can include complaining about looks, or part of your personality); rather than praising Him for how HE has created me.
You
see God had a plan with the emotional way He made me. Maybe it’s so I can have
greater compassion on those struggling, maybe it is so I can show others that to
have emotions are ok, and it’s ok to cry. But I believe that the biggest gift of my emotionality is to realize a closeness to God. For “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are
crushed in spirit.” Psalm
34:18. You see the gift of realizing you’re broken is that it brings you to
God...When you realize how deeply broken you are, how you can’t without Him- it
brings you closer to Him. Even as I type this I recognize that it is a
journey of realizing the gifts He has given, even in the things we see as
flaws. But for today won’t you join me in saying thank you God, for making us unique, beautiful, and creating a sense of awe in the masterpiece He has created and is creating in you & me (see
Eph 2:10).
May the
LORD bless you in knowing you are a masterpiece
May the
LORD keep you from complaining about your ‘flaws’
May the
LORD make His face shine upon you as you praise Him for His work in you
May the
LORD give you peace as you search for identity in Him.
No comments:
Post a Comment