I grew up
knowing who Jesus was from a very young age, since my dad was a pastor at a
German church. My parents had a
relationship with God and because of this I had a relationship with Jesus from
a very young age. I remember reading my Bible and praying almost every day
since I was in Grade 3. I 'officially' got saved either when I was 13 at a play
about Heaven and hell, or at 16 when we went to a conference as the Christian society.
However what happened is that although I knew Jesus- I responded to every altar
call after I got saved, I must have responded to at least 10 altar calls, always thinking that I had fallen back into sin. Sadly
no one followed up on me. However when I was in varsity I met one of my best
friends, Paula, and her and her friends showed
what it was like to be sold out for Jesus. and I knew I wanted the same. In 3rd year of varsity, God’s grace came
through and I met an evangelist Pravani. She walked a road with me, and she explained to me
that I can be assured that I will go to heaven due to my faith in Jesus, not
because what I have or have not done. Before that I often felt I needed to
recommit my life because I had sinned again. It was through her speaking to me,
Bible School and Ephesians 2:8-10 (For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is
not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast) that I knew without a doubt I’m going
to heaven no matter what I’ve done or will do. Before I was often caught in trying to achieve God's love, trying to reach Him- rather than accepting that He has done it all for me! In this year I got baptised
and went on my first mission trip. It’s been a journey of walking with God-
receiving lots of healing for my issues, especially that of self-esteem. Before I did
not think very much of myself and was seriously lacking in self-confidence, and
it has been a process of walking with God to realize I am valuable, I have
worth and I have something to add. I have not yet reached perfection- if only
;) but I know that I have grown immensely. I know that without God I would still
hate myself. I'd still be trying to measure up rather than living knowing His love & that I am precious to Him.
May God bless you with the knowledge of His grace, that you do not need to strive to win His love, may He keep you forever and always, may He make His face shine upon you so that you may know you are loved & precious, may He be gracious towards you and give you peace as you live for Him. <3
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